So I can't get a full time job that will pay my bills and get me out of the mess I am in. I just read a report that said there will be not be any good jobs for up to the next 4-5 years. That Health Care will pay well. Everything else will not. So there will only be good jobs and bad jobs available. What a wonderful forcast. I feel like I am at the end of something. I can't figure out what it is. I have no other job skills....I have applied to the health industry and got pretty far along in the interview process but failed to get the job. I have applied to other companies, temp agencies, and other low paying jobs. I cannot get anywhere. Switching careers at this stage is my life is pretty near impossible. I do not have the finances to go back to school as I have 3 degrees already I don't see how a 4th would help.
What's the point?
See post.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
An Interesting Coincidence?
Last night I had a "talk" with my higher power. You know, some call it God, some call it the Universe, whatever you want. I was meditating, praying or just communicating. I wanted to feel a connection. I focused on asking for some sort of sign....that would let me know that I was not forgotten.
Today I was running errands. At the first place a man called out to me and said "Is that a fun car"? I responded that "yes indeed it is". He asked if it was a Mazda Miata. I answered yes again. He the told me that he was jealous. I told him that if it weren't for my parents death and a small inheritance I wouldn't have that car. He smiled at me and got in his car.
"Ok" I said to myself that was cool. Was it coincidence? I get a lot of people asking me about my car and admiring it so I didn't think anymore about it.
Until later when I was running another errand. I was walking up to the store in the parking lot and a perfect stranger (another man) started talking to me. He asked me how I was doing?????!!!!! I said "I was doing pretty good" and asked him how he was. He said that "he was fine and that he was glad to hear I was doing well". I know I did not know him and he kept on walking after the verbal exchange.
Now I thought, nope this was not a coincidence. The universe/God sent these two people to me today to connect with me because that's what I was asking for last night. I asked for what I truely needed and was appropriately answered.
All I can say is wow!
Today I was running errands. At the first place a man called out to me and said "Is that a fun car"? I responded that "yes indeed it is". He asked if it was a Mazda Miata. I answered yes again. He the told me that he was jealous. I told him that if it weren't for my parents death and a small inheritance I wouldn't have that car. He smiled at me and got in his car.
"Ok" I said to myself that was cool. Was it coincidence? I get a lot of people asking me about my car and admiring it so I didn't think anymore about it.
Until later when I was running another errand. I was walking up to the store in the parking lot and a perfect stranger (another man) started talking to me. He asked me how I was doing?????!!!!! I said "I was doing pretty good" and asked him how he was. He said that "he was fine and that he was glad to hear I was doing well". I know I did not know him and he kept on walking after the verbal exchange.
Now I thought, nope this was not a coincidence. The universe/God sent these two people to me today to connect with me because that's what I was asking for last night. I asked for what I truely needed and was appropriately answered.
All I can say is wow!
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Lost in the Universe
Here I am a soul without a purpose. I am told there is a place for me here in this universe. I do not see it. I have asked, demanded, looked forward too, expected and ignored it. I do not find or get the answer. I go out everyday to try to do something that can be construed as purposeful or good. I keep a positive attitude for most of the time. I am tired of floating around. It is bad enough that we don't know where we are going or where we will end up but the worst is not having the path. I can't find it and am getting tired of looking for it.
I feel like I am missing out on something and it is huge. I should be in on whatever it is I am not. If I don't know what I am supposed to be doing than how do I know what to do? I am tired of this. My father always said to "keep the faith". I think I have lost it somewhere. Now I have to find that too!
I think I can now understand why some souls elect to leave the physical body. It is too painful. I know I will probably keep going and waiting and trying to secure that feeling that I belong and am doing what I am here for but it is getting harder by the day. I know there is no one out there that can help me but me. I am trying hard not to feel sorry for myself. I try hard to count my blessings. I try hard to read the "Letter to the Universe" at least once a day. My resolve is weakening.
I feel like I am missing out on something and it is huge. I should be in on whatever it is I am not. If I don't know what I am supposed to be doing than how do I know what to do? I am tired of this. My father always said to "keep the faith". I think I have lost it somewhere. Now I have to find that too!
I think I can now understand why some souls elect to leave the physical body. It is too painful. I know I will probably keep going and waiting and trying to secure that feeling that I belong and am doing what I am here for but it is getting harder by the day. I know there is no one out there that can help me but me. I am trying hard not to feel sorry for myself. I try hard to count my blessings. I try hard to read the "Letter to the Universe" at least once a day. My resolve is weakening.
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