Here I am a soul without a purpose. I am told there is a place for me here in this universe. I do not see it. I have asked, demanded, looked forward too, expected and ignored it. I do not find or get the answer. I go out everyday to try to do something that can be construed as purposeful or good. I keep a positive attitude for most of the time. I am tired of floating around. It is bad enough that we don't know where we are going or where we will end up but the worst is not having the path. I can't find it and am getting tired of looking for it.
I feel like I am missing out on something and it is huge. I should be in on whatever it is I am not. If I don't know what I am supposed to be doing than how do I know what to do? I am tired of this. My father always said to "keep the faith". I think I have lost it somewhere. Now I have to find that too!
I think I can now understand why some souls elect to leave the physical body. It is too painful. I know I will probably keep going and waiting and trying to secure that feeling that I belong and am doing what I am here for but it is getting harder by the day. I know there is no one out there that can help me but me. I am trying hard not to feel sorry for myself. I try hard to count my blessings. I try hard to read the "Letter to the Universe" at least once a day. My resolve is weakening.
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